Easy, fun, wonderful, loving and absolutely amazing. That would have been my definition of life after the age of 18, when I was 10. Now living it, it doesn't seem to easy anymore. It gets hard. You never know whats behind the next corner. Kind of like driving on a highway for your first time. But unlike the highway like doesn't get boring or easy over time. You keep traveling on that road and never going back.
Eventually you get a hang of it. Or you think you do, but then something happens to make you go back. Unexpected and uninsured. Everything just goes back into a spin and it takes you forever to get out, just to get pulled back in. For me, a few things are coming together. And I'm grateful. Honestly. You can't get everything you want in life. And slowly I'm even learning that.
I'm not an easy person to be with or around. I get stupid. Very jealous and sometimes clingy and ignorant. I'm not perfect. But even though no one can be except for God, I still strive to be the best I can. Even if it doesn't show. But life takes a different toll on me, just like it does on everybody else. Some may say that I have it easy with a job, loving boyfriend, parents and siblings, a roof over my head, car and soon license. But for most of those things I had to work for. Yeah for some I expected them, but I learned that no one gives you anything for free, you have to earn all of it.
There are days I'll throw tantrums because something is difficult, but once I take my time to think about it and break it down it's quite easy.
Everyone is different, and everyone takes life in differently. But for everyone it is hard even if they don't show it. And sometimes having sympathy or just listening and keeping your mouth shut may be the best solution.
Everyone has problems with something different that someone else found easy to deal with, and you can't judge, how hard it will be to deal with a problem based on your own or someone else s experience. Patience and enjoyment it that key to life. And love. But love isn't just a feeling, it is a relationship and a choice. Something you always have to work for or it won't work for you. Same with life. It may be rough or it may be easy. It will throw rock and thorns in your way, but what you choose to do with them will change the outcome of your life.
Everyone learns through their life. Me, you, and that person in the dark corner. But learning also is different. You can learn from books or you can learn from practice. Either way it's your choice and your life.
I'm not saying I know a lot,actually barely anything at all, if anything at all. And all of this could just be my imagination. But life on this page is my opinion from personal experience. And I trust that for me I can work on my flaws and try to be happy. And maybe in the end a little ray of sunshine will break through the dark clouds or lies, deception and hatred of this world, and everything will be OK.
