College park is a video blog done by my boyfriend, and also the name of the song which is the theme song of the blog. It is amazing and beautiful, but what pierces me to the heart is the intro video. Its a video of everyone in his family, friends and people he met once or twice, but everyone in those pictures is having a blast,most of them were captured when on wasn't looking. Its amazing and makes me want to cry when I watch that video, because it makes me realize that our lives aren't scripts or book by book plays that we make them out to be. But instead adventures and precious memories. Because once those people are gone those memories are the only thing we will have.
People don't seem to realize that the point of life isn't to work and save up everything you have, it's to enjoy yourself. Yeah that's not the meaning of life, because we are too human to understand the meaning of life, but we are only human and aren't perfect.So why not instead of trying to fit in or put all that trouble to show the most popular person in your high school that you made something of yourself, we try to actually live.
We have lost the child within our self that always tried to have adventures and wanted to learn new things about life, and instead of looking at boring facts, they used their imagination to come up with weird explanations to everything. But they were happy. And we aren't. Looking back at those pictures I realized that life is simple not easy, as someone super smart that I know, once said. All you have to do is enjoy yourself in everything you do. I know my mission, to get that girl that was laughing with her friend at graduation even though her life was falling apart.
Love you all
Tweaker
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
They Rape You Of Your Childhood
That saying refers to both a song and my life. Sadly the second one is the reason why its here.
I am the eldest of nine kids. Yes nine, not eight not ten. Nine. My parents wanted a lot of children but before they had so many they didn't consider the fact that they will have to raise them properly. My dad had 9 or 10 siblings, I forget how many. And he was the third from the youngest. So he had a bunch of siblings to look out for him and only 2 to watch over and learn how his parents raised them. My mom was the only child from both of her parents but has 2 half sisters she never met, so she got everything she wanted and never had to share or have responsibility. My dad was the one who took care of me until my mom learned. That took a little bit.
But as soon as I has a younger brother responsibility started falling on me. Because my dad was always at work and we had a farm I had to learn to baby sit, clean and help my mom with anything she needed as well as help my dad with the farm in the summer. And the only reward I got for always working was permission for superiority. I was a second mother to these kids and that kind of backfired. I'm not gonna lie, I love being in charge and be able to tell them to do what ever I want as long as it doesn't go against my parents rules. But that left me with nothing.
My mom had a girl 2 years later and twins 11 months later and then 4 more kids every year after that, the last 2 being twins once again. So she needed my help all of the time. I was what she called me " her second right hand" I was always there and always helping. I learned a lot about what to do and not do when it comes to kids and the basic things about raising them properly. But during all that time I had no time to be a kid, no time to play and no time to be the same as those kids, I was their protector and it was my job to look out for them 24/7. And from that I learned that the parents should be parents and the kids, kids. You can't put so much responsibility on a three year old and expect them to feel equal to their siblings.
As I grew older my parents thought all the kids that they can control the kids under their age but don't have to take care of them because I was around. For some reason they didn't lie responsibility on all of the kids to take care of each other, just on me. And thanks to that the kids became uncontrollable. They started having younger siblings bring them stuff when they didn't want to get it, or do their chores when my parents decided to divide them. And yell at each other just because they were older and older meant superior. But when someone picked on our younger kids from the neighborhood they weren't there to protect them, instead to mock and make fun of them.
I think my parents put too much time into making the kids and not raising me. And I learn from that, but just hope that they do too. Soon. And if you have kids, do yourself a favor and take time to know them and be responsible for them, do not put all the responsibility on the kids and treat them as equals and have them treat each other the same way. Feeling power and having power never brings any good if you use it badly.
Love Vika
I am the eldest of nine kids. Yes nine, not eight not ten. Nine. My parents wanted a lot of children but before they had so many they didn't consider the fact that they will have to raise them properly. My dad had 9 or 10 siblings, I forget how many. And he was the third from the youngest. So he had a bunch of siblings to look out for him and only 2 to watch over and learn how his parents raised them. My mom was the only child from both of her parents but has 2 half sisters she never met, so she got everything she wanted and never had to share or have responsibility. My dad was the one who took care of me until my mom learned. That took a little bit.
But as soon as I has a younger brother responsibility started falling on me. Because my dad was always at work and we had a farm I had to learn to baby sit, clean and help my mom with anything she needed as well as help my dad with the farm in the summer. And the only reward I got for always working was permission for superiority. I was a second mother to these kids and that kind of backfired. I'm not gonna lie, I love being in charge and be able to tell them to do what ever I want as long as it doesn't go against my parents rules. But that left me with nothing.
My mom had a girl 2 years later and twins 11 months later and then 4 more kids every year after that, the last 2 being twins once again. So she needed my help all of the time. I was what she called me " her second right hand" I was always there and always helping. I learned a lot about what to do and not do when it comes to kids and the basic things about raising them properly. But during all that time I had no time to be a kid, no time to play and no time to be the same as those kids, I was their protector and it was my job to look out for them 24/7. And from that I learned that the parents should be parents and the kids, kids. You can't put so much responsibility on a three year old and expect them to feel equal to their siblings.
As I grew older my parents thought all the kids that they can control the kids under their age but don't have to take care of them because I was around. For some reason they didn't lie responsibility on all of the kids to take care of each other, just on me. And thanks to that the kids became uncontrollable. They started having younger siblings bring them stuff when they didn't want to get it, or do their chores when my parents decided to divide them. And yell at each other just because they were older and older meant superior. But when someone picked on our younger kids from the neighborhood they weren't there to protect them, instead to mock and make fun of them.
I think my parents put too much time into making the kids and not raising me. And I learn from that, but just hope that they do too. Soon. And if you have kids, do yourself a favor and take time to know them and be responsible for them, do not put all the responsibility on the kids and treat them as equals and have them treat each other the same way. Feeling power and having power never brings any good if you use it badly.
Love Vika
Friday, January 14, 2011
See Them Coming 'Round The Airport, See Them Come...
You know, when I get old I hope I still have as much humor as this old gall.
Explosm.netCheck it out. Ahmazing.:D
Love Tweak
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Check It Out
I noticed a while ago that some people are super close minded. It's annoying but I know they cant help themselves. The day it really ticked me off was when I decided to let the world know about a certain band called "My Torn Genes". But even when you try to persuade people to listen to it they won't unless they think that it is their idea. Which of course 99.9 percent of the time it's not. But hey who's counting. The thing is, that people only listen and read what they know. And if it's out side of the box they are too scared to check it out and open their mind to it. Which is kind of sad.
In reality people should be fawning over everything they see and hear. Not believe it but at least be curious. But they are not. Unless its something crappy about someone famous. Then everyone is up their ass trying to find out everything they can. Other then that they are clammed up in their little world. I'm not going to lie. There are things I'm afraid to try too. But I try to over come my fears and think that maybe it will be good, or fun and just give it a shot. I'm sure a lot of people are that way, but a lot of them aren't.
There are things in life that shouldn't be done, like murder and theft and rape. But those are rules of morality. Being judgmental and not giving a shot to something like music or a movie is being rude.You can't believe something is good or bad by hearing about it from others. You have to check it out on your own. And a lot of people just don't want to. They are really missing out. Its human nature to connect with others, then why not give a chance to something that isn't you? Why not seek thrill and adventure when it comes to certain things like music, art and movies? Your life will be so much more interesting and fun. You will be bored less. If you just open your eyes and look at the things around you. And in the end you might find something you actually enjoy.
Anyway would you all be dolls and check out this great band that started this whole thing? Go to www.myspace.com/mytorngenes.
Who knows it might be the next big thing. Everything big was small at one point.
In reality people should be fawning over everything they see and hear. Not believe it but at least be curious. But they are not. Unless its something crappy about someone famous. Then everyone is up their ass trying to find out everything they can. Other then that they are clammed up in their little world. I'm not going to lie. There are things I'm afraid to try too. But I try to over come my fears and think that maybe it will be good, or fun and just give it a shot. I'm sure a lot of people are that way, but a lot of them aren't.
There are things in life that shouldn't be done, like murder and theft and rape. But those are rules of morality. Being judgmental and not giving a shot to something like music or a movie is being rude.You can't believe something is good or bad by hearing about it from others. You have to check it out on your own. And a lot of people just don't want to. They are really missing out. Its human nature to connect with others, then why not give a chance to something that isn't you? Why not seek thrill and adventure when it comes to certain things like music, art and movies? Your life will be so much more interesting and fun. You will be bored less. If you just open your eyes and look at the things around you. And in the end you might find something you actually enjoy.
Anyway would you all be dolls and check out this great band that started this whole thing? Go to www.myspace.com/mytorngenes.
Who knows it might be the next big thing. Everything big was small at one point.
XO Tweak
Monday, January 3, 2011
A Perfect Parent????
Parents. They are so stressful and ignorant it makes me want to quack out of anger. I know that they try their best and sometimes their best is really the best, but there are times when their kid needs to learn from their own mistakes.
My parents used to be full of rules and wouldn't let me do anything like wear make up, date or stay over at friends house. They became more lenient with time, but only because I decided to disobey them. I felt bad, but I really needed to get out of this bubble of protection and learn about life myself. Because their way I would have never learned about anything. Of course with time I had my friends and my loving boyfriend to help corrupt me.:D And I love it.
You see dear readers, the thing is that a lot of parents try to keep their kids from the world all of their life, or until they legally can't anymore. And when those kids, all sheltered and pampered go out into our world they are clueless about what to do and how to behave. They let everyone crush them within minutes and break their spirits. Why? Because their parents figured that they knew that the world was bad and they would keep them from it as long as possible. But those kids after a certain point should have been able to see the world little by little and learn about it little by little so that when they were old enough to go out on their own, they would be able to take care of them selves and make their parents proud.
My parents realized this a little bit too late. Because with them, I was the sheltered one and after me the rest of the kids got to do what ever they pleased, and my parents lost control. There was no middle where they would still keep certain things out of their reach and certain things within. Like rated R movies. Most kids wait until they are either mature or 17 to watch them. Our 8 yr olds have been watching them for a while. And my parents gave up control.
I'm not trying to say that every parent is like that or its my parents fault for their parenting. It is, but I have to cut them some slack because no one is perfect and when you have 9 kids it is kind of hard to teach them the right things and catch them before they get too far away. But I do believe that when you have a child, you should have a medium of what you will teach them and what you wont. But everything has to be taught eventually.
Love Tweaker
My parents used to be full of rules and wouldn't let me do anything like wear make up, date or stay over at friends house. They became more lenient with time, but only because I decided to disobey them. I felt bad, but I really needed to get out of this bubble of protection and learn about life myself. Because their way I would have never learned about anything. Of course with time I had my friends and my loving boyfriend to help corrupt me.:D And I love it.
You see dear readers, the thing is that a lot of parents try to keep their kids from the world all of their life, or until they legally can't anymore. And when those kids, all sheltered and pampered go out into our world they are clueless about what to do and how to behave. They let everyone crush them within minutes and break their spirits. Why? Because their parents figured that they knew that the world was bad and they would keep them from it as long as possible. But those kids after a certain point should have been able to see the world little by little and learn about it little by little so that when they were old enough to go out on their own, they would be able to take care of them selves and make their parents proud.
My parents realized this a little bit too late. Because with them, I was the sheltered one and after me the rest of the kids got to do what ever they pleased, and my parents lost control. There was no middle where they would still keep certain things out of their reach and certain things within. Like rated R movies. Most kids wait until they are either mature or 17 to watch them. Our 8 yr olds have been watching them for a while. And my parents gave up control.
I'm not trying to say that every parent is like that or its my parents fault for their parenting. It is, but I have to cut them some slack because no one is perfect and when you have 9 kids it is kind of hard to teach them the right things and catch them before they get too far away. But I do believe that when you have a child, you should have a medium of what you will teach them and what you wont. But everything has to be taught eventually.
Love Tweaker
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